Back again.

The rain thrashes at my window
The tears stream down my face
The screams of hate &sorrow
The beating of my base.

Treble turned way up high
The music suffocating me,
Flashbacks and memories,
Are all that I see.

My life is falling apart,
Like a wall crumbling to my feet,
I stand drenched in the rain,
Washing away lies &deceit.

I fall to my knees,
Pull my hands to my face
And scream as loud as I can
Because im not fit for this race.

I dont want to give up
I dont want to give in
but as I sit here pondering
I realise ill never be that thin

Ill never be that perfect
That happy or that nice
To you im always nothing
Theres nothing to entice.

You break my things
You let me go
Soon I wont be here
Im over with this show.

This act that is my life
My life that is a fake
So tonight I sit here crying
Im ready for the take.