September in the Rain

I never thought a single month could mean so much to me;
My world was filled with blissful sunshine, though the weather would not agree.
It poured all day and it rained all night, yet my spirits were not dampered;
You kept me happy all month long, I was constantly being pampered.

Chaos and havoc in my world just disappeared
When that golden ray of hope suddenly appeared.
You rose up with such gracefulness, an angel in my midst,
And life was fabulous, up until that final kiss.

One nasty October morning, I woke up feeling sorrow,
I could no longer see any brightness shining into tomorrow.
I washed and changed with urgency, and rushed round to your home,
What I saw before me chilled even my smallest bones.

Blood was splattered on the walls, a gun right by your side,
Suddenly I felt like I had nothing at all inside.
Then I looked to the left and noticed on the table:
Your suicide note which held tales of a life being so unstable.

"I'm sorry, Darling, I really am. For you've brought me so much joy,
But this depression inside me, I have held since I was a boy.
I thought I could conquer it, now that you were by my side,
But then I realised all I was doing was from the truth, trying to hide.

Do not cry when you read this, and I'm sorry for the sight,
But me being gone, away from you, will make everything so right.
Do not look back, do not remember, I am not worth the pain,
Our memories really only lasted a month: a September filled with rain."