Behind close doors

One more drink becomes 5 more drinks.
your parent gets so cracked out that cant even blink.

the house stays dirty and the fridge stays bare.
your parent lies on the couch without a care.

smack and a shove just because you exist, just because you were born.
rip and a tear to make your heart torn.

cut and a slice to make you feel real, to make you feel whole.
you lie there bleeding without a soul.

you drink to get to the bottom and pop pills just to be high.
you sit there wishing this night is the night you die.

you try and barricade yourself in your room which becomes your safe heaven
but BOOM here comes the monster because your weren't behaving.

i put on a smile even though its fake and my heart is so sore...
....THIS IS MY LIFE BEHIND CLOSE DOORS.