Defining Everything Defective

Please dont judge to harsh. its my first time ive written in a long time.

Thinking about life,
Never sure what to do,
Thinking this is just an escape,
Always dealing with this whole love-hate,
Scared to death,
Gasping for breath,
Hiding from problems,
Always feeling like the victim,
Hide these scars,keep them hidden,
Concentrate on the positive,
Defining everything defective,
Thinking this is just and escape,
Suffering over all this hate,
Not sure what to do,
Never sure what to do,
Doesnt matter anymore,
Tripped...
Feet missed the floor..