I Just Can't Be Mad

You'd think that id be mad
you'd think that i would hate you
you'd think that i wouldnt want you ever agin
after all the sh*t you put me through

but if you think that
then you would be very wrong
for you are constantly on my mind
a new love i cannot find

i talk to my friends
but i dont tell them the truth
i tell them i dont care anymore
but im just being aloof

because these feelings
have taken over me
every night i lay awake
this desire i cannot slake

i want you more than ive ever wanted anyone
but i dont know how to tell you
if you read this then maybe you'll understand
a little bit of what i am going through

but i dont know if you even care at all
nothing you say makes any sense
i dont want to be hurt again
but i want at least a chance

but you say there's some one else
another girl who you care for
so i guess ill just have to wait
for my poor hearts sake

im kinda hoping that you wont read this
because i dont know if youll take it to heart
the fact that i want you in my arms
i want this all to work...