Lying Heart

I sit here in the dark
imagining the past
wishing i could relive it
wishing i could watch it die

pain swirling through my head
passing through my heart
bouncing from emotion to emotion
i wish i knew which one to trust

people say its not me
but how can i believe them
i don't even believe myself
my heart will never agree with my mind

images of friends
images of lovers
haunting my every turn
with their painful lies

sorrow is dipping my heart
doubt is driving my mind
sometimes i wish i could just stop caring
leave all these memories behind

just when i think i'm finally alone
finally time to collect the pieces of me
another glance of their faces
flash right back into view

so here i sit
lights off with the tune of silence
trying to figure out myself
my worst enemy....