I AM CONFUSE

I have amazing parents in my life that I adore SO MUCH!

If you read "I STILL MISS MY DADDY"

It is part two now... get ready cuz I am going to be in tears writing this.

I have a life but not until I was 12 years old.

I lost a dad I loved.

My dearly mother work hard taking care of
my 2 brothers and baby sister during

7 years without my dad.

It is was the hardest struggle we ever did

and hard to do everything

better for my sibling and I.

I realized I was 2nd oldest to help my mom.

But it was sad to see her frustrating

Going through like this but we fought through

to bought the love inside of us to be okay

I was doing the best I could to be supportive.

We had to moved to Colorado

I felt like my life were falling apart,

Couldn't do it any longer to stay

strong for myself in the new place.

Few years laters, there wasn't no tears

We was finally happy to hear other laughs

AGAIN but few months later around winter

I have a fear knowing something isn't right

AGAIN. There might be a person I love to

death going to tear the family apart.

My own mother losing weight and not eating

Much like she used to. I was only 17 and I

knew I had to courage her without me

being mad at myself, I can't have sadness anymore.

I pray and begged GOD to let me have my

mom, it can't be today. I may be sinned but

Please, not my mom. She deserve to live.

My heart break when I find out the news.

it screw my whole life over again.

I cried for hours on my bed talking to GOD

to say "WHY WHY WHY! WHY HER!! SHE TRY

TO BE A BETTER MOM. WHY WHY GOD.

YOU TOOK MY DAD AWAY.. NOW IT'S

MY MOM. I AM CONFUSE. I NEVER

THOUGHT WILL BE HER. THERE R SUCH

NO GOOD-BYE FROM MY MOM. Why her"

couldn't concentrate, couldn't think, and

couldn't Do nothing but blaming myself again.

I never ever thought of my mom has it...

It already Taught me once now I failed

Because my mom has hiv-postive

My mom panic, we took a blood test

My mom thanked God we are all negative

I couldn't thank him for me because

I been through a lot and it is not like

I forgot to love him but it was so difficult

to look at my mom, she's my world and

didn'tTwirled my life.

She's best as my daddy are.

This gone too far,

she done a lot for us

None of this will make my life better again.

I am still confuse after 2 years, still affected

My life like is okay. Now I am 19 and there

noBetter way to keep this great.

This would help me for yall to be supportiveIt is was so hard to put in together for me to tell you abt my mom but I believe yall can understand and show some love. Comments and rate would be nice. :-\