The medication

Four walls one door
She gives me a slight smile
Expecting me to reveal all
As she talks I nod my head
My eyes travel from wall to wall and back
To her arm
She noticed and covers the scars on her wrist
So maybe she does know after all

I hadn't yet resulted to cutting
But if I was left in the darkness any longer I might as well tried
Everyone has been worried
Maybe this is my chance to bare the truth
And let the feeling pour out.

I go to open my mouth
And a stream of tears flow from my eyes
The lady looks deep into my eyes
And says it's okay take your time

Within moments I had told her my story
She nodded and listened
I thought she thought I was crazy
After all they had sent me
To the manic depression floor
Instead she tells me I'm not alone and that she can help me

As I leave the room
I don't remember her name or half the things she said
Only one thing
The most important thing of all
That I'm not alone

She sends me to another doctor
One specialized in my "problem"
I open the door to the waiting room
Kids everywhere
Young and old
The walls painted a cheerful colour
Is tep into his office and that's when it begins
As he put it the road to recovery
He gives me medication saying it will heal the pain
Not only did it heal the pain
But made me unable to feel any emotional pain
Now I'm dead to being depressed
Sometimes it's good
And Sometimes it's bad