How many times?

How many times must i cry
with all my heart so cold and pure
i just want my life to end, sorrow and die.
but people must no, must no about me
that I'm a special person
it is really not that hard to see
i care for people i don't even no
but now isn't a good time
i cant take it have to go
everyone knows now what i really am
and how I'm like and what i do
they really don't care
they put me down say all the wrong things
that hurt me SO bad i slash
i hate my life right now
i want to grab my head and bash bash
so when the time comes and you shall no
that because of you and what u said
I'm slowly dieing so cold ..so slow..