This Movie In My Head

You sit there in your room thinking really hard
about every bad thing you did to me, the reason my hearts scarred
than you call me on the phone knowing I'm upset
telling me you love me and how much you regret

Yet theres nothing you can say or nothing you can do
to make me forgive you for everything you put me through
my heart has been through enough, my eyes are all cried out
the only visions left in my head is when you use to shout

And those are pasted in my mind
nothing you do can erase those bad times
its like a movie replaying in my head
those fist fights and the bad things you said

I try to rewind my memory to think of good times
when everything was perfect, and our relationship was fine
but all that keeps popping up are the times you raised your hand
hitting me when I was down thinking I would understand

than as I fast forward this movie in my head
I see myself alone crying in my bed
wondering and wishing you wouldn't do that to me
praying for the strength to just let you be

Looking at the bruises all over my body
knowing my dignity was stolen, you got the best of me
than I see my children with tears their eyes
and thats what helps me move forward, cause I don't want to see them cry

They should never have to witness me get abused
and I should never be mistreated, hurt and used
so when you call me on the phone thats all I seem to see
and that is why you will never again have me