Fear

People tell you to face your fears.
Every day i do.
Everyday i face my fears, my phobias.
I'm afraid of life, I'm afraid of people looking at me, I'm afraid of people talking to me.
Everyday i face these fears, everyday i wish to die.
Yet, everyday i live.
I push on thinking that it can only get better, knowing it will only get worse.
I live a life of fear, knowing no better and fearing no less.
A life filled with worry and hurt, my heart covered in dark thoughts, drowned by unhealthy ideals.
My only way out?
Death.
People don't understand, they never will.
My way of life to surreal for their minds.
They live life free of fear, my desired life.
Fear holds me tight, never to let me go.
Stopping me from moving forward in life, holding me captive to its evil ways.
I dread the next day, not knowing what it will bring.
The unknown, i shudder at the thought.
My life is not what it seems.
happiness is a distant thought.
Uncontrollable fear forces all the joy away.

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