The pain you've caused

The pain you've cause is hard for me to deal with now. I want to cut my wrists let the pain leave somehow. You said I made you sad all the f.ucking time, but I don't know how I commited such a crime. With you I was so happy but now i'm only sad, when I get home today i'm doing something bad. I'm gonna do it worse then I ever have before, I' am so lucky I have a lock on my door. I want to bleed forever and breath no more breath. It is only luck that will bring me this. I hope I slip a little and hit a major vein so then that will be my last hurt and pain.