Lost in this whirlwind of my emotions, I'm looking for solitude, I'm looking for acquittance to these feelings~Every time I think of how I feel, I speak acrimonious on myself, I try to understand the meanings~Looking into my eyes, you will see the loss of hope, the pressure of the past pain I fight with my might~At the end of each day, remembrance will always be there, this feeling of loneliness is such a fright~I will push this all away, run from it if I can, and struggle with the emptiness in my heart~I watch the sun lay down, watch the arms of night tuck it close, I watch it from the start
I long to be engulfed in that darkness, where nothing is left to feel, nothing left that needs healed~Disappear from sight, vanish from this flight, hide away from my soul~This I can not do, I need to feel all that is there, and search for all I know~My heart cries out in the darkness, I want to feel close, I need to feel that hold~The grasp of life is strong, I've known the purest love of ever, he is my son~He is my world, I open my heart and soul to him, shield him from the pain he does not comprehend~Someday my life will be filled, will be whole with love, and someone will have taken my hand
