Not so secret anymore

So you've come here
to watch me die.
let teenage depression,
Take over my mind.
This bottle of vodka
I've let for so long,
In a non-addictive kinda of way.
I'm just here,
me,
alone,
with the voices in my head.
open the door;
To find I'm too far gone
to help.
just stand and watch life,
Killing me from the inside.
rejection
In the end,
From everyone
This Isn't my life to be living,
yet no ones letting me die.
This slow process?
I dint know.
How long can i carry on?
I guess as long
as destiny wants me to suffer...
with all the people
that i love most,
In the world,
theres this feeling
that keeps me from being
empty.
This wish,
This wish to die
And thats what i came to do.
Grab a plate;
taken a camera
you'll only get to see this once,
You've seen my heart and soul
destroyed
now, let my body join the dirt,
Please don't make too much noise.