Things i decided

The things i have decided,
the mistakes I've made
a lot very stupid
but there all the same

The never eating
the battle of the knife
yell at my friends
planned to end my life

i have still got the scars,
many you can not see
not many know about them
there is really only me

i have close friends
they try their best
to put together everything
my life is a mess

i fail at school
always sent to the shrink
i know the teachers talk
what must they think?

her arms so red
her face so white
the look of tiredness
she was once so bright

the family is no good
they don't really see
all the warning signs
of a girl like me

i often ask god
what did i do?
i think it's cuz I'm bad
is it really true

i don't have a solution
all i have is a knife
I'm not sure how long
i will have this life

i believe life ends
i will take my own
either by the knife
of from longing for bone

but life goes on
just not for me
i want to disappear
just wait and see

*been a while so this one might suck*
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