If Only You knew

If only you knew how it feels
To wake to dark on a sunny day
To feel nothing that is real
And bleeding is the only way

To wake each morning sad and cold
To still fell chilled in the heat of the sun
To watch the path of life unfold
And still the worst has not begun

To look around and only see smiles
To fake that smile as your mask
Hurting inside all the while
To cover up is the only task

To bleed each night in cold despair
To rip the searing skin apart
Hoping that no one will dare to stare
And again the next day, it will start