Giving it a go ,but the truth is.....

Yes the truth is out now ,
my partner knows another I have feelings for.
Yes he still says he loves me ,
even though him I no longer adore.

He said he'll change his ways ,
happy is what he wants to make me.
True to his word he is changing ,
the changes so far are clear to see.

But deep within my heart it is aching ,
not letting anyone see the tears I cry.
I'm missing the one I do love so much ,
forget him I can't no matter how hard I try.

I feel like I've been trapped ,
because of what my partner did say.
He said I could go but not with the kids ,
he knows leaving them theres just no way.

He's making me feel like I've committed a crime ,
when falling in love is all I've done wrong.
So here I stay pretending that all is ok ,
my kids being my only reason to stay strong.

I care alot about my partner and I love my kids ,
what we did have was always enough.
Hurting him this way i never meant to do ,
and I certainly never meant to fall in love.

If I could turn back the clock I would ,
go back to how things used to be before.
Because right now I wish I could end it all ,
then the pain and sadness would be gone for sure.