Psychosis

Bleeding from my eyes
The poison my brain emits
Daily thinking, spitting, fire
Breathing, teaching, fear
Coil my fingers under my flesh
Slide them deeper beneath my eyes
Feast the worms as they wriggle and writhe
Screaming voices under my tears
Acid streams from every pour
Burning my flesh, my thoughts
Forgetting to breathe, I'm lost
In one fell swoop these fingers rip
Skin soaring in every direction
The voices fade into the dark
Laughing and tingling under paper
Paper so fragile, so pale
The blood seeps and covers
As if snow could bleed
Glacial eyes fade to black
My smile will remain

I've been getting panic attacks a lot lately. It always makes me feel as if a million voices are talking at once, constantly pounding against my skull, my heart is so heavy that I forget to breathe. It makes me want to rip my skin off from every angle just so I can get that breath.