Red Rain

One more time, fast and quick, the pain will come after, hopefully no pain at all.Getting more and more tired with each second that goes by. My hand won't move now, it feels strange but safe. Not cold like I thought, warm.

It's quiet, eyelids are getting very heavy. Everything's blurry, and blood, blood red. Mom.. It's not your fault, please don't cry. You were always the strongest, don't fall now. You couldn't hold me forever, and I'm sorry you had to see me like this...

Hey little bro, stop looking like that, always with a sad face. It's going to get stuck like that... It hurts when I breath; come here, I keep telling you it's not normal for a boy to cry so much...

Take care of mom for me, you hear. She's going to need you now, and take care a little sis and baby sis, your the big one now so don't let me down.Tell little sis I'm going to visit grandma for a while...

I'm glad she's not here to see this, it's to bad though. I would have loved to see that innocent face one more time, even if for a quick second, until she realized what was going on. Her tears hurt the most. I loved her hugs...

I promised myself I wasn't going to cry and here I am going back on my words again. At least, this will be the last time...

Baby sis... Always keep that smile of yours. I know your not old enough to remember this, but if you could, at least remember my request, don't forget me okay? Don't forget who taught you how to crawl or who made you smile and laugh, because I wont forget you. Never...

I can't open my eyes now. It's dark, even when I leave there's no sunshine. I can hear my moms shrieks and screams slowly fade away, till I can't hear her at all, I can't hear or feel anyone... Only the soft, soothing drops, drops of the rain...