If Only You Could See

Tears fall down,
As my smile slowly turns into a frown,
I try to be strong,
But its hard to hold on,
I can hardly stand,
You just let go of my hand,
Like everything was alright,
But it is only the beginning of this fright,
If only you could see,
All this pain inside of me,
You would know that I chose to run,
Because life is no longer fun,
You look and stare,
Like I'm not really there,
I cry myself to sleep,
Because of this feeling so deep,
I don't want to hide anymore,
But you shut the door,
To my happiness,
And my best,
If only you could see,
All this pain inside of me,
You would know that I now realize,
That it was lies,
When you said you cared,
And that you would be there,
To you I'm just another kid,
Trying to do what you did,
But its a lie,
Your tears aren't the ones I cry,
Their my own,
Only because I feel so alone,
If only you could see,
All this pain inside of me,
You would know,
That its not that easy to let go,
Of this thing I call life,
Even if its not right,
This feeling I get,
Because I cant forget,
All those little things,
That used to make my heart sing,
No, I don't smile anymore,
I just ignore,
The way you say,
Its going to be OK,
Because I know its a lie,
Its not going to be alright,
If only you could see,
All this pain inside of me,
You would care,
And would really be there,
You say you don't know me anymore,
But you never really did,
You only knew some kid,
That is now crying,
And slowly dying,
Because of your lies,
And the weakness in my eyes,
Grows more,
Because I cant take it anymore,
If only you could see,
All this pain inside of me,
You would hold me tight,
And help me forget this fright,
So I wont scream,
And finally follow my dream,
Of becoming someone new,
So I can forget about you,
Just open your eyes,
And look behind all my lies,
That I'm not OK,
That the pain still hasn't gone away,
If only you could see,
Would you know the real me?

©2007