Lost Heart

I held it so tightly in my grip
but something was wrong when i felt my heart beat skip
my blood was rushing to my feet with fear
as i felt my cheek tickle from a tear
i knew it was me that caused it all
it was me who had taken the biggest fall
i closed my eyes as if it were a dream
as everything slowly went downstream
i dug down deep searching in fear
longing for the words i so wanted to hear
i dug until my fingers were bloody
then you looked so deeply into my eyes as you started to study
you couldn't believe what you were seeing
not knowing what was happening not even believing
so many thoughts ran threw my head
maybe this is a dream and I'm still in my bed
but these feelings inside of me were just to real
this was something i wished i never had to feel
i walked away with so much unknown
so cold so freezing right to the bone
i was holding it so tightly with my grip dug in so deep
i knew i wouldn't let it go i would forever hold it to keep
until i had realized something so shocking
my fear had shadowed over everything including a big thing it was blocking
i had realized it wasn't me who took the fall
it was you who ended it all..