Dreams suck

I close my eyes, knowing in a few minutes ill be slipping away
into a dream come true, but a nightmare in disguise.
Its when I wake up sadly to say
that the nightmare shows, and the dream dies

You called me, needing a way out
remembering i said id be there twentyfour-seven
you sounded like you wanted to scream and shout
so I said id meet you at eleven

I left the house at quarter to
needing time to think,
did I really want to follow through?
Of coarse I did, I felt my selfishness shrink
you needed me , maybe not like I needed you
But ill always be here to see you through

I walked down the street in the cold to the park
it held so many memories, where we got our start
i sat on the swing ,crying and waited in the dark
cuz its also where, you ripped us apart

The raging wind slapped my face
I wiped away my tears
I didn't want to be a disgrace.
I needed to get rid of all your fears,
so I ran up and gave you a hug
you sighed and held me snug

we were then sitting on my couch with blankets and food
as you began telling me what was wrong
I yawned then apologized for being rude
you shrugged and said your story was long
I snuggled closer, complaining of the cold
you continued your story, and tightened your hold.
Then you said it was getting late and i better get to bed
I pouted as i got up thinking you wanted me gone
But then you asked, "would you mind sleeping with me instead?"
I grinned and nodded, for once it felt good to be wrong

We layed together side by side
it felt so right to be next to you
holding you, with no feelings to hide
I was gonna be the one to see you through

then I remembered you didnt want me, with a sigh
and sad to say, again, i started to cry
with a frown you asked what I was crying for
when I whimpered "for wat once was"
you lifted my chin and said " and what is once more"

I realized then , true love never dies
and those were never permenent goodbyes
you saw now that you needed me,
and my fears were gone, as with my insecurities

I heard my name being called in the distant,
i looked up confused, who was that?
then as realization sunk in the pain was instant
I opened my eyes and looked around
you were gone, had never really been there
I shuddered in pain and fell to the ground
Why was life so unfair

The day seemed to drag on
Is it a crime
to say, I was counting how long
till I was in your arms one more time?