Gradual Suicide

Dismembered by the truth,
I'm drowning in my tears.

The torment gets worse everyday,
its everything that i fear.

What do i got to lose, I spin in my dreams.
Making life out to be perfect,
when its not what it seems.

I take these pills to ease the pain,
yet more strikes me with every move.

Losing all that iv ever had,
i'ts hard to get back into the groove.

As it rains my head swells to exhaustion,
passing out I'm removed from myself to
lie there in isolation.

Sadness sweeps over me,
engulfing me in this guilt.

For something I never deserved to have,
yet it fills me with filth.

I once felt the love,
that true feeling I thought would stay.

Doing the best I could to stay on,
yet it still got away.

So what do i do now,
since iv done all i can to feel the love?

Do I stand below in this dark cloud of torment,
waiting for something above?

I've dealt with all I can take,
and the tears just keep streaming down.

Sitting in this isolated position,
I lie alone with a frown.

Hoping for that one chance
I can set everything straight.

I think id rather be in a casket right now,
waiting to suffocate.

Its just useless to hold on
no matter how hard I try.

When it all seems to come together,
I'm only wanting to die.

Please save me God, if your up there in the sky!
Please bring me back the happiness..
I don't deserve this pain..why!

I put every emotion and
love into a relationship so pure.

Yet now I'm spinning in a
nightmare of tragedy searching for the cure.