Loneliness is the best experience

Warning this isn't really a poem,
its just random stuff written down,
i couldn't be bothered writing at the moment like i normally do.

Loneliness:

Its meant to be painful,
and experience not worth it.
But as i sit here alone,
i realise i love it.
i feel happiest when no ones there,
for once i get a break from my life,
and i walk past people alone,
knowing they think I'm a loner,
but inside i feel like jumping for joy,
its like this loneliness I'm going through,
is the thing Ive always been waiting for.
I felt suffocated,
like i was in a crowd
and i was the one everyone was staring at.
I felt like i couldn't take a step out of line,
without the fear of rejection.
But now Ive realised without them here,
I'm free to be everything i was scared to be.
Loneliness seems so dull and awful,
but for me its the perfect destination.
I walk on my own knowing they look at me,
i know what they are thinking what they say,
but that seems to not matter as i walk away.
I know this might sound weird and untrue,
but loneliness is the best experience,
Ive ever been through.