Shutting down

Shutting down

For so long I have been consealing all that is real.
My heart has become so numb, I am no longer able to feel.
very soon no love nor care shall run through these vains.
for I have been so overwhelmed with so much pain.
I have gotten to a point were any man would break.
I have to release myself it's become to much to take.
All the love I have felt, for all that I care.
I have to walk away from now, cause no one is there.
I can not forgive myself for I always seem to fail.
The one person I want is not in love with me, left to be but an empty shell.
An empty vesil I could pour any amount of love into, yet it will never fill.
I have fallen before, yet I have never been so down.
I am reaching out for her, yet she is no where to be found.
Unable to take this, I am shutting myself off.
My hearts walls will rise, so that I don't have to love.