Karma, love , and hate

Before I met you, I fell in love with every guy who smiled at me. I was so young and naive, I couldn't try to see.
When we got close my eyes opened up a bit, and this love thing had taken it's biggest hit.
I took a big step back to think about what love really was. And I decided that I was never in love with anyone, not even you.
Then days passed into weeks and weeks soon to months until almost two years had come around. You had made me realize what love was.
I was madly, deeply, truly in love with you. I wrote down a list of what love is and should be.
You , you, and you, is all it showed me. So I gave in and took the plunge.
Even the smallest things turned me on, shut me up and made me smile. Well a few more weeks went by, or more than a while and we moved in together.
Three days before it happened, you promised me forever. Day one you woke up and realized you hated me.
Tears filled my eyes and your purposes I could not see. Panic attacks, stomach pains, and suicide flooded my body.
How could my love, my best friend do this to me? You left and came back later, we tried to work it out, but it didn't make it any better.
You had cheated, and I was jaded...boy our love had surely faded. Left me for that little girl after all our years, and here I stay alone wondering my greatest fears.
What did I do wrong? Who is really to blame?
Are you even ashamed of what you did to me, beat me, hit me, abuse me in every way?
No, so I sat down and wrote a list of what was hate. And put that list beside my list of what was love.
You had been love, but hate turned into you as well. I had forgotten what love really was until I met you, and I didn't realize what hate was until I lost you.
So pretty much, (Matthew), I know we're through, but to this day my strongest feelings of love are still true. The truth be, that I love you, but with that love you get the hate and that is what you gave me; hate. And from me you get love and hate, accepted or not.
It's hard to understand why you ended it so harshly after all the joy, things can be fixed, feelings can be unmixed, and life will go on. Well at least in my heart I know how I feel to this day about you. Knowing deep down that karma will someday get you too!