Confusion

I'm not sure what to do
I'm so confused
You say we're not broken up but it feels like we're through
I'm curious if I've become boring
Always there with the same routine
Why else would you want to explore?
Have I not been appealing enough?
No.
It couldn't be that.
Could it?
So confused.
I don't understand what is going on
I feel like I'm dying
Though I act like I'm fine
But I cant hold on to that lie
Though I'm trying hard not to
I think I'm gonna cry
At least my face I'll hide
So you cant see tears falling from my eyes...