Unexplained confustion

I know I shouldn't even be writing this,
we were never dating so the story goes.
But I can't help but love you still.
It's like a curse, like a disease I just can't shake.
I know you don't feel the same darling,
I wouldn't expect you too,
after all we've been through.
But you told me that we would be best friends forever.
So why did you disappear right out of my life?
Ya didn't even say goodbye, kept me believing
Someday soon you'd call to tell me about all
your life.
What happened to all your promises?
Your never really there anymore,
Even on days your free.
I don't mind, baby, I'm used to being alone.
But don't give me false hope when you ignore me when your friends are around, don't make me believe that your always gonna be there unless its true.
I'm not asking you to be my boyfriend, I just wanna be with you, I just wanna talk with you, I just want you to be my friend.
Friend's laugh,
Friends cry,
Friends hold hold till the end.
Friends stick up for one-another even if they're wrong.
Is there is something your not telling me?
If there is I wanna know.
You've said you don't wanna hurt me,
Then why are you so far away?
Can't you see I need you?
Is it that you don't have time?
Or is it that you forgot we were supposed to spend Halloween together.
I miss you, so much it hurts.
I keep holding on to something I can't have.
You keep smiling back,
I hide my face and shed a single tear.
So tell me the truth, I'm a big girl now, I can handle it.
This time I won't break down.
Once upon a time I built a high high wall,
You broke it down with three single words.
Words you'll never say again.
No not to me, but thats okay.
I'll be okay, even though it hurts,
as long as you don't say goodbye.