How Much It Means

How much it means to forget
the world, your thoughts, the mind.
terrifying, agonizing, deathly afraid.
who is truly your support - who is just there.
how much it means to remember
good things, torn apart. shattered to pieces.
rebuilding the public unknown. ability to express
and to share. how nice it would feel-
the anticipation of knowing your war is over
what you don't know, never understanding anything.
this is how i feel.
capability of telling and sharing.
coming to terms with yourself.
fighting.
the adrenaline rush is much simpler.
do you know how it is now?
simple.
whole.
how much it means to forgive
let it go.
something new to remember daily.
fighting your own demons.
accepting what you thought was over.
explaining to people secrets and facts.
becoming truthful to yourself.
and to people who care.
if you don't think you have anything -
speak up.
this is your chance.
don't be metaphorical.
everything lives with you forever.
think and act now
or else it may spiral downwards.
i don't feel anything.
let it go.

the end.