Silent

I try to be hard and block you out
your still in my heart visions no doubt
i call your name aloud when your not there
even if you was you wouldn't hear
Ive became a silent word
i speak ,but no words are heard
what am i to do memories unchanged
remember the good,but bad times remain
i shall worship you even though your mean
how you have changed,but I'm still keen
our kids all grown,but they really do care
us all together hopefully a family affair
i thought that we all would be happy
everyone goes through times of being snappy
but you've built a wall so damn high
for me to knock it down will take a lifetime
but because i love you so,IL give it a try....