Finally say Goodbye and mean it

I said Goodbye to you my dear
But I did not mean it
I only said it because you said it
When in my heart and soul I wanted to keep you by my side
I wanted you to still be with me hold me your arms and kiss away my tears
Took me so long to realize that hopes of being with you again are in vain
Took me so long to find out that we will never be together again
I can finally let go of the bitterness
And realize it jsut wasn't meant to be
Doesn't matter what you did
Doesn't matter how much you cared and how much of it was lies
What matters is we had something beautiful
And I am finally able to let go of the resentment that cut my heart like a knife for almost two months after our break up
A few days ago, I cried for you for the last time. I said to myself it would be the last night I'm not sleeping wishing I was in your arms,
Wishing you were still with me,
Wishing you would call and I your voice calling me beautiful would bring joy to my life
Surprisingly, I have abided by this rule
I have said Goodbye to you that night
I have shed the last tears for you
I have said Goodbye my sweetheart and actually meant it
So as I write this now, I'm letting go of you, letting go of continuous obsessing thoughts of what you're doing, who you're with, wondering every minute of every day if you ever think of me and like I do,
letting go of spending every second wishing i could go back in time and replaying the time I spent with you over and over in my mind wondering what I did wrong
I'm letting go of all my feelings, all of our memories, everything that reminds me of you. I will never completely forget you, but I have taken you out my heart.
And with that said, I say Goodbye. For the last time, I allow myslef to think of you
So,
Goodbye,
Forever