There All Blind

I stand there and smile
Nod my head and laugh
I tell jokes to others
And play sports with a passion

My grades are great in school
Most would say i'm perfect
'Cause i dont even have to try
Everything just seems to flow

My parents are still together
And love each other to no end
My sister and me get along
She really actually cares

BUT why cant any of them see
That my eyes no longer hold life
They have dulled over the years
As i have slipped deeper and deeper into my own fears

It truely makes me sad to see
They haven't noticed the change
And it makes me wonder
Do they really care?

I told my mother yesterday that i dont beleive in god
She took it with shock
Then today when she was talking to me
She asked if i wordshipped the devil

That was my mother that asked that
And i started to wonder why
She would even tink something like that
I almost wanted to cry

I dont really think my parents care
Even though if i asked them they would say they do
But if that is really the truth
Why do they question me like a criminal

As i sit and ponder these thought
A cold knife pressed lightly on my wirst
I really start to wonder
Do they really care...