RAPE///I'm Still Here

It's been 4 years and I'm still here
In the beginning I thought I wouldn't make it through the first year.
The first year of raw images and the words I lacked
I still feel the pain from the knife in my back.
You were my best friend until that day,
I remember it so clearly, the 15th of May.
I can taste your sweaty palm over my mouth and I feel your hands on my neck
you have taken so much of me, I'm such a wreck.
You pushed yourself on me, took my innocence away
We had always said friends forever...until everything changed that day.
4 years later and you thought things would change,
how can you seriously find yourself saying my name?
You want to make things better before you go away,
you want to say sorry, as if you have anything to explain.
I don't need to hear you make excuses for yourself,
these for 4 years that I've been at school with you have been nothing but hell.
Nothing you can say will ever take the pain you've caused away.