The Glory of Failure.

My head drops
the lights go out
but I didn't notice.
What were we talking about?
Come on, think...
"You're a smart kid,
why are you being so stupid?"
I'm sorry
I didn't realize the importance
of the contradiction.
Tears, fears,
embrace, escape,
the world is dying.
"You were gone ten times."
I'm always absent...
I tried --
I wanted to be okay,
believe me.
I would have been there
if I wasn't....
just...
crashing...
burning...
nihilism consuming.
I'll think about it
and get back at you
when I'm someone else.