Why i never called u my friend

(this is probably the most emotional poem i've wrote so far.. and i'd appreciate it if u'd take the time to read this poem.. please rate and comment it...:)

something's telling me to stop writing
10 million voices kept saying "No!"
this poetry is going to be cheesy
but if i stop then you'll never know
i was afraid of making new friends
then end up losing them later on
I'm not sure if it's your nerdness
or charm that makes me go on
and not be scared or terrified
to open the door and let you in
fall back into my life
you taught me to never give in
i know you have like a thousand friends
and obviously i'm not one of the best
i'm conceited, arrogant, and always
was mean to you, but what makes
me different from the rest--
is that i can never say "no" to you
and it's not because you make that retarded face
where you look like a sad puppy and then asks a favor
i do those favors cuz i want to, i'm a pushover what can i say..
i want you to keep this kickass poem
cherish it and make our memories last
i can't promise you that i'll stay at S.C next year
but i promise i won't exclude you from my past!

this poem is for you Patricia Trinh.. thanks for dealin wid my insanity.. you're da most awesome viet grl i've ever meet... and reason y "i never called you my friend"
is cuz friends come and go.. u r my sister!