This war inside my head

I'm tired of this ongoing war
It's like a dagger to my core
Always raging never through
I just want to start a new

One side of me
Wants to be happy and free
From all the pain
Always in agony always in vain

While my other side
Wants to always be able to confide
In he who has my heart
Never wanting to be far apart

And so it continues on and on
I just want it to all be gone
Thinking that it may never end
I'm kind of getting use to this trend

Though I let go of everything I had
I can't decide if I should be happy or sad
I let go of it all cause I didn't know what to do
Someone just tell me how, and with who

Now in my head I can't decide
Which side of me has just died
I know that one has said good-bye
But I don't know how or why

Someone please help me out
Someone please show me what to do
Someone please make my life easier
Or someone please just let me die