Daddy ??

I feel so angry
Even when i look at you,
I wish i could believe you
When you say you love me to.

Isn't a dad supposed to be there ?
Through thick and thin,
But you haven't been there
When will it begin ?

Mum always calls me daddy's girl
But I'm far from that,
You always say daddy's girl
So why call me fat ?

I wish i was close to you
In a father daughter way,
But every time i come and see you
I just don't want to stay !

Why do you still want to see me
When you don't love me,
I wish you understood
Then maybe you'd see....

That i love you so much
No matter what you've done,
I just want to be a somebody to you
Who has a bit of fun.

I cant see you as a dad
As nasty as that sounds,
You make me to uncomfortable
And make my heart pound....

Panic attacks before i see you
No sleep the night before,
Wishing for a change in you
Wanting it more and more !!