Tick-tock Tick-tock
I sit here waiting.
Waiting for the news
Finally what seems like forever
The screen name I know so well appears
I wait a few minutes
Then the screen name pops up with Hi
I reply back before asking how the boy that I love so much is
She types,as she types I seem to start to get my hope up
Finally the news is present to my eyes.
Still unconscious I read
I can feel my hope fall and my heart sinks
I continue to talk with her
She ask me how I'm doing
I tell her I'm holding up the best I can
Meanwhile in the back of my mind
I can't help but wonder of all those times
I prayed, cried, and begged God
To let the love of my life
To wake up and be well.
If all that was for nothing
We continue to talk before either of us has to go
I sign off thinking of everything I have found out
I fall on my bed feel so alone, scared and numb inside
I start to cry thinking about losing him
As I cry I fall to the floor and start sobbing and pray to God to let him live
I offer to take his place after I scream why.
From all that crying I slowly fall asleep
Into that wonderful dreamland
Where I am with the love of my life.
So until I wake up the next morning when I come back
to the reality of being sad,loss,confused,and scared
I am happy while I sleep.
