If only life was perfect...

Vivid dreams
Of a vile time
Replaying over and over
In my mind

Fears that will haunt me
For the rest of my life
Fears that i try and cut away
With a knife

Sadly
It only works for a short period of time
And then all these bad thoughts
Just pop back into my mind

I start to wish
That life was never bad
But the realisation
Just makes me sad

Its ok things will get better
Thats what every one said
But there not the ones
Who often wished themselves dead...