To My...

To my mother
To my step father
It's your daughter

...are my screams loud enough
...can you hear me?
.....Or should I turn it up a bit?

I'm constantly sitting here
locked inside my head
I remember all that you said
and all that you didn't say

Silence creeps upon the shadows
that leave reminders of all thats lost
As lost is my soul
My heart is tainted
With the poison of this life
this air I breath

...with your insults
...and you abuse
Dear mother
Dear step father
..Please just P*ss Off is what I want to say

his insults burn my very heart
His abuse breaks me down
Till I'm barely standing
and believing what you say

Why do people insist on hurting me
Am I an easy target
Why do you insist on killing me more inside
Maybe I'll just take the knife
Before you end me