My mending heart

Lately Ive been thinking...
about anything and everything...
its just so hard for me...
if only you could see what i see...
if you could feel my pain deep within...
and how I'm wanting to just let go...
Ive been hurt so bad...
and right now i just don't know...
i wanna believe the things you tell me...
i wanna believe our love is true...
i wanna believe that you wont hurt me...
i wanna believe in me and you...
but when i think about my past...
it really brings me down...
Ive been hurt so so bad...
and i just don't know right now...
i really do love you...
and i never wanna lose you...
but right now just isn't the right time...
for me right now is a little too soon...
its only been a month...
that i finally got over him...
i need more time by myself...
i have to let my broken heart mend...
and if what you say is really true...
and if you really do love me...
please promise me this one thing...
promise that you'll wait for me...
and if this promise you just cant make...
then yes we can still be friends...
but still i have to let you know...
i truly loved loving you my friend...
every time id hear your voice...
its like what more could i ask for...
but the times that we wouldn't talk...
it was like i don't wanna get hurt anymore...
yeah you say you wont hurt me...
but then again thats exactly what he said...
and yeah you say your not like other guys...
then again thats also what he said...
yes i do trust you...
just not with my heart...
I'm afraid its still a little broken...
i still have to find all the missing parts...
but when i do find them...
you'll be the first one i turn to...
because even though i cant show my love to you right now...
baby i really do love you...
i hope you'll understand...
I'm not trying to hurt you...
but i just wanted to let you know...
i had to tell you the truth...
and now with all thats been said...
ill leave you with this...
even though we wont be right now...
this is only the beginning to a beautiful end...