If ever i did leave!!!!!

I cant describe this feeling
the one i have in my heart,
it's hurting so bad
literally being torn apart,

i wounder what would happen
if ever i did leave,
because then i wouldn't be broken
and my heart would never be ceased,

id never feel any pain
and there wouldn't be a loss,
and i wouldn't drown in the rain
and no one would be cross,

then what would happen if i stayed
id just get f u c ked off,
and then want to leave anyway
so i might as well get lost,

so maybe i will
I'll get up leave and go,
it wouldn't matter to you anyway
i could be dead for all you no!!!!!!!