Can't Give Up Hope

I used to always think that everyone loved me
I used to always think I had almost no enemies
But now as I look around and listen to other people
I'm left wondering what they really think about me

I remember a time full of honesty and trust
When I could believe someone's words
And I could trust them to have my back if needed
But it seems that time no longer exists

I see people praise me for everything I am
And later the same day they insult me with vulgarity
I see people talk nice to someone's face
And the minute their back is turned the truth comes out

As I look around at what the world has become
My eye catches something black nearby
It's something that could end it all for me
And take me from a world full of deceit

My hand grips the handle and slowly raises it
I turn it, my eyes scanning it's every groove
I check and make sure it's loaded
As I slowly raise it to where my temple is

But I lower it quickly realizing something true
Even in this world where morals is a lost art
I can't give up hope that out there somewhere
There's someone I can believe and trust with my life