I'm always changing.
I've changed so much already.
When I was little,
I would cry my pain away
and be over it.
Now I store it.
I store it so I
can torture myself
like this.
So I can shake like an earthquake
but not shed a single tear.
So I can sob with dry eyes
and empty my misery filled heart,
just to fill it up again.
So I can imagine
what will scar it this time,
because it's already
to scarred to heal.
A couple more
and it will bleed.
It will bleed until
its out of blood.
I will lay wherever I fall
and die knowing noone cares.
