My feelings for you...

My feelings for you are ambivalent
I feel like you were heaven sent
Yet, I feel you're only filled with more & more bull****

I hate the way you say my name
Yet, I pick up the phone anyway
And I just can't reframe

I love the way you look at me
Yet, I turn away so you can't see
My feelings for you just don't agree

I hate the way you make me feel
Yet, even your voice gives my body chills
Though, I know that your feelings aren't real

I love the way you imitate me
Yet, when you do, I reprimand you and scream
But in the inside, my heart gleams

I hate the way you kiss
Though it fills me with so much bliss
Therefore, I never resist

I love your swagger
Though at times it feels me with anger
And all I want to do is give you the finger

I hate the way you speak
Because you make me weak in the knees
Though at times you can be so mean

I love it when we argue
That's just something I like to do
But sometimes, the aftermath is, I just can't stand you

I hate the fact I let you get to me
Yet, with you, I feel so FREE
And it's so hard to see you leave

I just don't kno what to do (should I stay or go)
I'm torn between the two
And if it's time to leave, how do I go on without you?