How?

How does my heart beat
i no longer know
why it continues pumping
and allows my blood to flow

how can i go on
living in this hell
how can i get up
with how far I've fell

how can i continue to try
to keep up this lie
how long will it go
the answer I'd love to know

how can i write
these words despite
the pain they cause
of a reminder once lost

how and why
are the questions
we ask
but how and why
can we forget
our past....