I loved you so f*cking much,
I gave you everything i had to give...

I stand here alone
Calling out to you...

I stand here alone next to the old oak tree,
the one we used to come to, just you and me...

They found you hanging from the tree
Where we used to smoke pot after school...

Tears form in my eyes
I do not want to appear weak...

So last time I wrote about you
I said it would mark the end...

Mommy please forgive me
I never wanted to be this way...

I begged you to take away my pain
And for many things I gave you blame...

Here I am and here I will be
To have you is all that I desire...

I tell you that I am happy for you
I wonder if you know that I am lying...

I look across the room at you
Butterflies swirl in my belly...

I HATE YOU
For never truly loving me...