Goodbye Mommy

Mommy please forgive me
I never wanted to be this way
I tried so hard to make it
But I could not live another day

Your little girl got so very lost
She could not find an escape
You always saw me smiling
But I held sadness under my cape

You told me life was never perfect
That sometimes things cause pain
But I missed out on the happiness
As depression appeared once again

I tried to be strong and move on
To be fearless just like you said
But I could not stop the nightmares
From roaming around in my head

Mommy I am so very sorry
That you had to find me tonight
My world was so very dark
And I gave up trying to find the light

I know this is your nightmare
To find your little girl broken
You thought I was content
But there were words unspoken

I tried for you to be perfect
Hide the nasty things I had inside
I even put a pillow over my face
At night times to muffle my cries

So now I will say goodbye mommy
Sorry that I went and let you down
I hope that you will get past this and
One day a smile will replace your frown