I'm holding on for dear life,
but i can feel myself slipping away
who am i wearing myself down to
who am i becoming?
all the men i hated
sexual relations=nothing
i'm not able to catch feelings

Fxck your feelings i dont care
you weren't there when my heart felt dead
you wrapped me up and tossed me out
placed my body in the lost and found
you slapped me silly you broke my heart
now i dont care that you're falling apart

I can't let tempation hurt you.
am I ready to committ?
you're a good guy with good intentions, i just have to retrain my heart to accept it.

If i were you i wouldnt fall for me.
but people seem to have a hard time with that. usually i push them away, or use them then throw them away..but i'm fallin into you. but you should push me away, i'd only hurt you at the end of the day.

Look what love has done to me
i toss and turn the nights away
and tear puddles drown my feet
made me pathetic, aching and weak
look at the damage love can do,
which is why im philiphbic
and i am now terrified of you

The blue skies turned grey instantly,
calm feelings replaced with anxitey
hurt and anger filled my body
tears poured out of my eyes
creating a sea of uncertainty to drown my feet.

Sometime I get caught up in the moment
and I forget to remember the fact that I'm not quite ready to give my heart away again.

I think my feelings are disintegrating,
my love for you is slowly fading.
is it because I ask too much?
I apologize in advance for any feelings I've destroyed,
I just wouldn't be able to face myself if I wasted anymore time.

Thoughts of you causing my mind to spiral out of control.
Short breaths and mini heart attacks, at the thought of letting you get close.
Open minded to anything but that illusion they call love.
Heart break awaits me if I follow down that road.

You never win by hurting people and tearing hearts apart. Because you get whatever you give.