&& i feel no bravery just sadness and i think to myself maybe it is all worth it... to end it all and put me out of my pain... but then i think of those who will be left alone... so now i just fade away and pretend like nothing is wrong

I looked into her eyes and saw nothing but emptyness... her arm had blood dripping from it... she was crying... i reached out for her but then i realised that i was looking in the mirror... it was me...

I look at you and i feel so much love and warmt... like the way i used to... [i let you go]... i pushed you away... {but now i want you back}

Your touch fills me with joy
your mouth touches mine
our bodies close together
you in my arms
me in you arms
a girl can only dream

I can ran just as fast as i can
to the middle of no-where
your just like a pill
just like this one here...
i'm sure you'll cause more pain then this little pill

You smile poitetly
i stare right on through
why is it that i cant talk to you anymore
you said i could whenever
but that look tells me i cant
i need you now more than ever

Once you were a friend but now you have weaved your way into my heart i sleep and think of you i talk to you and my heart flies i think i really do love you

As i layed there
you out your arms around my body
you hold me in a warm embrace
your touch fills me with warmth
i turn n kiss you...

Everything was just a big game to you a lie
i never want to see you again

I wana die right now just
so i can hear your voice one last time...
so i can feel your touch one last time...
so i can say goodbye one last time...
RIP brown nanny xx